/+ chokee chokee

a sad mistake.

2005-10-16T02:24:00.000+08:00

a sad mistake i did. people have been passing their tp here and there. waiting for their tp's and i'm still stuck on practical lesson 1.03. ok back last may was the 1st time i took it and then back in oct i took it on the 2nd time and i dun even noe when would be the 3rd, 4th or even 5th time i'm gonna take it again. ugh. money is such a barrier to do anything. seriously if i'm gonna have infinite number of tries, i dun mind failing.

ponder abt it, even with failing 1.03 two times how many times should i pass the next and next and next lesson? theory wise hadn't had completed. i'm just wasting time. i just wanna quit. but whenever the sound of bike wheezing past the street next to mine just makes me wanna take it again yet again.

even tho i noe the result of owning a bike later on. ugh. i shudnt had blog about this, but installing winning eleven on this stupid system had just taken its toll on me. taking me the whole past 1 hr just to install a game. excuse my hastiness.

i'm just gonna save enough money and cash it into the 2nd bank back in bbdc and take everything back and pass soon enough to show that i can pass too. and not just airs being blown out. and the reason for me pasting this here is just on deliberate mode to show u people i'm still alive and still blogging. so yeah. happy fasting. duh.

[ataris; eight of nine]

what sia?

2005-09-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

yeas yeas. i love girls. cos girl love to fart and burp and most of all GOSSIP. yeay!

psst. whats ur name?

2005-09-25T23:57:00.000+08:00

i just think kings of leon is nice. try listening to em.

[kings of leon; molly's chamber]

2005-09-25T01:58:00.000+08:00

i woke up with a terrible wet and sore eyes. and something deep inside tells me that, i'm hungry. okaye since 0000 hrs, people been msging and calling me non-stop. i guess its tt tym of the night people get bored and finding some humour and enjoyment and, "hey, lets give zuL a call and a msg even tho i noe he's sleeping but nvm i'll bother him anyways!" so yeah. plenty of it that i received. and blame u guys for it, i can't sleep for nuts and herms is annoying me like shit like what usually he would. yeah cheap thrills dude.

and tomorrow is finally the last day of the week. and new semester in school is coming up. not that u guys would be interested in noeing but yeah, i just feel like telling u and making all of u guys noe. err. ok. haaha. and i noe i owe u a chzcake. i'll buy u one. do not fret! =P

so i feel like farting now. and i guess i would. so longs. whatever long it maybe. sick u.
byez.

[silverstein; when broken is easily fixed]

hiak dsh

2005-09-22T03:06:00.000+08:00

i monopolised the usage of the phone, the television, the fan, the internet and everything at home. and if anyone wants to use those thing but i'm using it, they can't get any of em things.

so i'll tell u a story. my lil sis wanna use the internet. and only through my laptop can she access tt. just fyi, our home desktop is currently down; since 2 yrs ago. hah. and so seeing some advantage of the situation slowly arising, i told her that she can use my laptop, provided she promise to clean my fucking messy room for me. i'm no oppurtunist, just tt the fact of someone cleaning my room for free is a wonder

but honestly, i never least expected her to do that. cos it was darn messy with stained undies and boxers thrown all over, overnight cups of coffees, crackers wrappers and passion fruit esprit bottle and coke bottle and plastic bags and paper bags and empty wax container and all sorta stuff u can probably imagine strewn ard.

knowing how lazy she can be, i'd only expect her to clean it hal heartedly. so when i came home from work at 1+, i place thee back at thee sofa and strght to the bathroom to wash thee face. and went to watch tv. all this while not entering thee room. 10 mins later when i finally entered thee room, i found smthing odd. i was thinking to myself why was the room different. then i gerrit, it was sparkling clean. bed was made up. pillows was stacked properly. dirty apparels was in the bucket. clothes fold and hung. stuffs thrown away.

and one thing tt made me sniggered was, the thing tt stuck out like a sore cock was my ashtray full of ciggies butt placed on the hi fi and labelled whats this in blue marker pen. when it was actually fm under thee bed.

heehe. thx sis. but i noe u pao to mom oredie. =)

[modest mouse; white lies yellow teeth]

ambellina

2005-09-21T14:33:00.000+08:00

i find enjoyment in sleeping. tts why i sleep. so i guess. i've updated.

[coheed and cambria; the crowing]

all on black

2005-09-20T01:10:00.000+08:00

why can't u guys mind ur own fucking business and leave me on my own?

scrutinisation; my life's innit. fucking unpaid for and amateur paparazzies are writing abt me. ainnit kewl? i'd be an overnight celebrity. fkuc.

there's really no joy in critics. save the trouble. i'd be my own critic.

i won't hire u guys for it. thanks but no thank you.

[alkaline trio; all on black]

and i dunno why.

2005-09-17T00:37:00.000+08:00

i found this weird. being so sleepy and lethargic and tired. but not wanting to sleep. i dun think this is insomnia. having insomnia is like being sleepless everynight. fuckit. i CAN sleep. but my intestine just whispered to me that its not the time yet to sleep. sigh. tts why i need to see that guy in the white suit hollering a stethoscope over his neck and a thermometer in his side pocket. get from him something undergrd and get addicted to it perhaps. and it'll cure my predicament.

and i think i wanna pet. a snail, a frog and a sheep. done. would you want one too? or should we settle for his custody court-wise. u decide. heh.

i just wanna go to the esplanade.
go to marina.
go to one fullerton.
i just feel like going. and i dunno why.

[hot hot heat; middle of nowhere]

2005-09-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

i'm as lifeless as the Sony earphone scattered on the floor of my room, as the newpaper dated friday 9 sept under the radio and as the expired cookie in the paper bag next to the bed.

i'm lifeless. i want to sleep. goodnight.

and to work shall i go later. and errr, i think i will come in late because i'll have a stomach ache later on. sm:LE)

[avenged sevenfold; bat country]

2005-09-11T03:44:00.000+08:00

i think. that. blogging has been becoming a nightly routine for me. or rather, i feel its a bonus chore for me. or is it a habit. lets discuss habit.

H-A-B-I-T. just a five letter word. simple. stop it there.
defining habit; attitude: somebody’s attitude or general disposition

but in turn, habit has a deeper meaning to it.
HABIT, try taking the H out, you'll still be left with tat A-BIT.
wat abt taking tt A out, i'll swear ur gonna get BIT.
and try forgetting that B out. god, ur still gonna left with IT.

so get that. habit doesn't go anywhere no matter how hard u wanna throw it away.

keeping habit isn't a bad thing afterall. habits such as biting ur fingernails. damn, its unhygienic, but have u heard any news about any guys died resulting from too much fingernail biting? no right. yeah so stop ur nagging about people who bite fingernail. analyze this, all habit are not crime offences and won't hurt anyone. so just dun make it a habit to scoff at someone at his/her habits, unless he/she has a habit of killing people especially u. gerrit gerrit. and yah, i think i've this habit of typing that. haahz..

damn i'm editing this post again. for now, i'll publish this and leave it as it were.

[hopesfall; the broken heart of a traitor]

pigscanfly. so can you.

2005-09-10T04:18:00.000+08:00

eh good news. read the news yet?

researchers found a string of enzymes in animals that can result them in acting weirdly. one report shows that this genetic twisted trait found commonly in cows and pigs make them behave wonders. a study carried out by a reputable university in the west shows that cows can actually learn to fly given the oppurtunity and pigs to swim. scientist are actively conducting test afeer test, trying to find a way to extract these genes from these animals to better the lives of humanly species on Earth.

and that kept me wondering.

if bulls were to learn to fly wouldn't it be bullshit? especially if tt lump of smelly-with-flies-flying-about-bullshit gonna splat on ur pathetic pretty face.
and if pigs to swim? damn, desalination wouldn't be an option for singapore for an alternative to water scarcity problem here. gerrit gerrit?

go check on this piece of news under yaheoo! news.
http://www.yaheeooo!.com/pigscanfly/html

damn this pop ups asking me to buy all those sex related stuff! fyuck off. i'm no desperado. think abt it, if my sis gonna use my laptop and all these popups gonna pop up (get that get that??) she will think its a toy and start to put it as my wallpaper. aren't we cool. aren't we hip. we gonna get some bitches tonight.

goodnyt guys.

[muse; unintended]

2005-09-09T03:22:00.000+08:00

dammit. its gay to say this. but i treasure my friends. please lah. lets be friends okaye. dun fight2 anymore?

amidst everything just now, actually, i'm craving for mee goreng at teh tarik and roti boy at clementi. boleh gitu eh?

k lah. k lah. we kiss and make up k. dun quarrel2 anymore. we be friends till the end ayte. sorry lah. everything is my mistake. how abt a meeting again?

addicts lah!

[the postal service; recycled air]

somehow misery helps

2005-09-08T00:43:00.000+08:00

i'm trying hard to refrain myself from rubbing my eyes and touching my hair while typing this. deareye is itchee and dearhair is dancing infronta it. i think, tuning in to blogs is more orgasmic approach comparing it to watching porn or gorging down food as most of you guys may think in ur sick minds or even as fun as straining caffeine off coffees and teas and redbulls and coke. well, blogging is a more addictive alternative. try it.

ps. i'm surviving with only 20% off battery power on my laptop now. so if u see this post not turning up as a latest entry means either i'm dead or my battery had just gone through a funeral wake.

gosh. rocking to the get up kids just reminded me of the 1st day in poly life. cos practically i brought the get up kids for almost a month in my.... damn i even forget whats the name of that electrical appliance used to play audio cd. dammit. its a cd player lah.. ouh! ok.. its a discman. i just remembered it. the get up kids was playing in my discman for a whole month of new semester in poly life. gosh, the experience of going into poly was exciting sia! but now, its been a surplus to memories.

and yah. before i forget. i'm typing SHIT here. gerrit? nevermind. someone would.

[the get up kids; wish you were here]
you won't turn to go,
you won't leave me here,
the past is all we know,
the memories are clear
wish you were here

.22 calibre

2005-09-07T00:59:00.000+08:00

i dun like bad guys who goes around killing people with a .22 calibre. it's just isnt right.

[craig's brother; masonic]

payday

2005-09-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

payday. here's the scenario. seeing three beautiful girls and buying them a drink.

idiot; hey there. can i buy u a drink?
beautiful ones; idiot! can't you see we are having a drink?
idiot walked away hand in face.

next scenario. seeing another three beautiful ones at the counter queing up for a drink.

idiot; hey can i buy u girls a drink?
beautiful ones; idiot! can't u fucking see we are having a drink?!
idiot; FUCK YOU. u haven't even bought ya drink. AND NOW CAN I FUCKING BUY YOU A FUCKING DRINK?

well its kinda a desperado. well it may works. nth to lose dude.

and i bought the esprit tshirt i wanted to. wee. but its purple. haa! thx dee's friend (well i kinda forgot what ur name were). thx for tt compliment. dee well preferred the brown one. anyway still i got smth from this pay.

[suede, beautiful ones]

2005-09-04T19:12:00.000+08:00

okaye. life hit me like a bullet train. time to settle down, i guess. no use hanging on and wasting too much time and effort and getting nth in return. one day i might just tear this blog down to prevent people knowing what am i feeling abt. note this, this is just a random entry.

if i can't be with you now i will and i might one day in future. now, think about my friends, i wanna be with them now. i mean yeah now. in the past 4 mths, blame me on my busy schedule or anything, friends had been distant. and i'm the crime scene here.

and now its time for me to think about my future and make it worthwhile rather than sit and rant abt nth. and change change nth. useless! its no use i guess. u guessed it right too.

time is just a distant memory in my life i wish to relate on. but time too determine everything.

time to give up on you, my deepest inquisition may say. but i refuse to abide by the norm. let just time kill me. let just the wound of yesterday hardens. let just get the blood infected. i'm inert. and i guess i finally understand the meaning of inert from the years in secondary school life where inert is such an everyday word. inert to feel anymore. this thing is just fyucking me up too much. i will pretend to be happy and by pretence i hope i will be real. ironicity u may think. complexity others might think. just ponder abt it. and just ponder.

think abt it, theres much truth in that sentence. i will not hang on to smth i won't get. release myself from the clutches of conscience thats grieving on me every single day for the past 5 mths. i've never been myself at that moment of seconds. its time to score points.

now wouldnt that be a story to behold. i'll just stamp my foot firmly by the ground and believe one fact of life. nothing gonna change if GOD allows it to happen. predestined the word. or fate u may call it. i'd just settle for simplicity. and i'm done now.

i cherish you.

[hot hot heat; island of an honest man]

isnt tt cute?

2005-09-04T01:00:00.000+08:00

i went to arab street in daylight! finallay. hahah. the only moment spent at arab street is either passing through there in the night or slacking there in the wee hours of the morning. and i've never really seen the full view of that place in full view under broad daylight?

ok. naziff showed me around there. went to a couple of cool shop. and covered almost the whole of arab street to find this cafe called "KAKI FIVE or KAKI 5". where is tt clarr?? she described tt place as an art gallery cum cafeteria. darnz, tt sounds nice. bummer, we din find it. all there were, was familiar al-majlis and ambrosia cafe.

had a drink of soyabean by sultan mosque and proceeded down to somewhere. and had our dinner at raffles hospital banquet. whoah. filling sia. and yeah. not forgetting why does pretty girls have to be at arab street? cmon its a saturday. go to orchard!

there's a gig at one of the studios down there. met sufrin and he asked me along. haaha. naziff ain't keen on the idea so i think i should just forgo it. but it's been months since i stepped foot on any gig.

met sufi back down by jurong east. slacked with him and fagged. why doesn't it feels like the good old days. must meet up again soon. and have some laugh like last night beb? well it was fun as sufi shared his fair deal of experience he had this recent weeks. haha. well i like the rat part dokz!

and my niece is coming back home with my aunt tomorrow! i wanna meet her.. and throw her down the flat.

now, isnt tt cute?

[interpol; specialist]

hp. beep please.

2005-09-03T11:46:00.000+08:00

okaye what was the day yesterday. friday, ain't it. friday, september 02, 2005. the most dreaded day of my life. everything was soo wrong on that day itself. and everything. the conversation. the work. the life. everything. conversation i had wasn't fulfilling. work was bloody fucked up. i broke almost every fragile where to be seen in that bloody coffeeclub. started the day with also a bloody bad dream. a premonition to what is gonna turn out. a bloody premonition which can be better prepared if being deciphered properly.

why doesn't things go my way? shit. i wanna move on. but i can't.

handphone. please beep.

[the silence; last sunset]

2005-09-03T06:08:00.000+08:00

stay behind while you moved on
wish you were here

nudge me.

2005-09-02T12:41:00.000+08:00

i wanna write stuffs but its not coming out. goodbye little rectangle entry post. good bye.

[switchfoot; on fire]

2005-09-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

hey looook! its mr stickman!
up there up there.

argh. malas lah mcm gini.

haha.. and see its oc on the set!

2005-08-30T12:42:00.000+08:00

test

2005-08-30T11:01:00.000+08:00

i'm just messing with this thing.
stupid blog because it doesnt publishes my blog.
or issit just this template.

thats it! thats it!

2005-08-30T02:12:00.000+08:00

i think of our times together

is it fading or am i dreaming?

everything you said lives on

i cherish our memories

i want to kiss your tears away tonight

it's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd leave

august in bethany; juliana theory

dearmom; buy me a scooter

2005-08-27T14:30:00.000+08:00

dearmom promised me a scooter.
either i want a black plus silver lining
or a cream coloured topped up with a green layer.

i want a scooter.

[bloc party; so here we are]

backspace to erase ur memories.

2005-08-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

weird day. slept through class. went home. slept through evening. woke up. did RJ. and this thought occurs.

if 1 + 2 = 3. den why not 3 + 1 = 2?

enter backspace to erase ur memories.

thats the big fat word

2005-08-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

exhausted. the big fat word dude. the big fat word. (repitition) exhaustment. and test has been FUCKING alot. and its stupid. because, whatever results i'm gonna get later i'll be FUCKING destined to FUCKING repeat my modules. FUCK. chiong chiong chiong. all the way in getting a 2b license for now. and a ktm for later. chiong again. FUCK exhaustment now, think convenienity (sic) later.

i wanna pass my tp soon.

my sweet little munchkin. i wuv you.

TP TP TP TP

2005-08-23T02:29:00.000+08:00

i wanna chiong my bike till tp!

press F1 for self destruct.

2005-08-22T04:43:00.000+08:00

the day ends quite fast today. time literarily flew. i did bar. and i'm glad i continued doing it. the place was slack. tamleh's last day of work. and everything wasn't right from the moment he clocked in. hehee.

darnz. place was a wreck. a fatal concoction results in me getting back at it. its like, you shitting on your neighbours door just to slip on it after u finished doing so. gerrit?

fark. and now i'm smelling of stupid baby's puke lah. darnz. my shirt was all brown and black and whatsoever colour u can imagine. but haha, comparing it to tamleh's, his was worst.

c'mon tam, enjoy ur last night in cc before doing your country proud donning that blue shirt and a beret.

and i've a database final ut in about 4 hours and i'm so gonna have this feeling i'm not waking up on time for it. ugh. tiredness.

press F1 for self destruct, F2 for enlightenment, F3 for standby and F4 for F4.

my feelings for you hasn't change since the first day i saw you. whatever i said it loud to you wasn't meant to be corny or sweet talking. just sincere and straight down from the corner of my broken heart. ok. tt was corny. erm whatever.

i still remember seeing u, sitting in fronta me eating a burger quietly on tt particular day. still remember seeing u, sitting at clementi interchange alone and quiet, waiting for the bus to hvcc. still remember taking the bus back home together. those walks we had. those laughs we hold. those feelings we hide. those rants. the tugs. pokes. tickles. pouts. EVERYTHING.

I LOVE YOU.

vaccinate my mind

2005-08-20T12:24:00.000+08:00

i really dunch noe to be happy or sad for you. but HAPPY is a more appropriate feeling for u. congrats ayte. but just remember me on ur payday. if u can't get thru my hp, i'm like just 8 bustops away from u? hakz. good luck on ur future endeavors. i'll catch up with u say 4-5 yrs later miss? hee3.

wokie, yesterday's work was fcuked up. i'm like the only guy doing closing. and JC's another one but he's done at 11. manz. everything went smoothly. and my legs gave way.

whenever i'm miles away on thoughts its always u i've been thinking abt. adding to that, ugh u sprayed on me; ur cologne. abis lah. mcm mana nak keje gini mcm. haa! as days goes by, the memories remains. i'll wait for you. i won't let go.

[flunk; blue monday]

temporary insanity

2005-08-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

note to all; this is just a temp!

come. eat my book

2005-08-16T14:25:00.000+08:00

someone asked me this before which i still remember very clearly up till now. and it doesn't bother me before until just now when i started thinking about it.

question is;
"is it possible for someone in a relationship to fall for someone else?" fullstop
answer was;
"yes it's possible. there's a fine line between love and like".
period

so now after a few mths, reality did punch me back on my jagged tooth. my answer was wrong afterall. well at least on my part thats it. go figure it.

and i borrowed two books off the library shelves. temporary insanity and good omens. good books.

he is legend; eating a book

there is a monster in my
room we discussed movies
over coffee
and I think it's quite absurd
he got hungry,
licked his lips, shook my hand,
and tried to eat me.
and it's getting on my nerves
don't you think it's strange
that i've been reading,
and I still don't know how to
kill you
i'm trying hard not to meet
you when i'm sleeping,
still don't know how to kill you

i've got tickets to show
i know no one will be attending
and think that you should go
i don't mind your complexion
or the fact you are bleeding
it's just the way that it goes

i don't mind the shape your
head is in
i've just got to watch you
explode

2005-08-14T03:00:00.000+08:00

... this is what results when i've nothing to update. done-d.

[kings of leon; california waiting]

that msg.

2005-08-13T16:06:00.000+08:00

i dunch noe why i'm worrying so much for her. futile.
the fact is; she has someone else to care for her. a much more important someone.
i shall stop this now.

warmness on the soul

2005-08-12T15:16:00.000+08:00

this is nice. thumbs up.
the island? is nice too. thumbs up again.
bye.

venue; in the library
time; 1525hrs

reflections

2005-08-10T23:32:00.000+08:00

she says that i'm not the same guy she used to talk to 7 mths back. i'm not the same zul. whom she can confide in, to talk with and the same guy who used to be always there for her. honestly tho, i feel its just ur perception of me which has changed.

u told me to be sociable and not anti people. i tried and i managed.
u told me to smile more. i tried and i did.
u told me to acknowledge others more. i tried and i did and i managed.

actions and experience change people. dunch you agree? i just missed those time when i was really an outcast to society outside. when i'll just walk past people whom i noe without even acknowledging them. not even stopping for a moment to think abt others. i guess things were better back then. its all about me, me and no one else. darnz. i wanna be independent back again. i wanna be alone again.

now, i'm being told i'm super emo, and screwing my life more then i should. seriously, if i'm not that social, things would be super different for me now.

i wanna be me in 2004. turn back the time. please.

[bells x1; eve; the apple of my eye]

death. my bitch lover.

2005-08-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

back and forth
ebb and flow
give and take
sleep and wake

what is your name? oh ocean?
and if so? where?s it written?
is death? perhaps? your moniker?
my lover? i am smitten

death? death? sex and death?
love and life are like the tide
death! you are my bitch lover!
my salty swollen bride.

_____________________________________

seriously. wedding crashers is funny. and i was holding my bag, giggling like a girl when everyone was keeping quite and din find anything funny? i noe jeanno was irritated. who wouldn't? when u are sitting next to a psychotic assjack who laughs at the slightest of funny lines. but seriously it is funny. haha. yeay. national being spent nicely outside.

had dinner in bugis. had alotta pictos taken. took a bus from bugis to cineleisure to find out "the maid" is not available. walked our tired legs off to plaza singapura to enquire about any tickets there. but maid was selling fast and the only seat we had was 2 or 3 rows from the front? errr. ok. decision made and wedding crashers we'd go.

and din noe playing xbox at xzone was a kewl thingy. quite fun lehs. and also, fireworks watching down beside plaza singapura was a sight to behold. a splendid clear view. i gotta watch it at least. i had been curious and always fascinated by fireworks. i dunch noe why. since young. and its a nice view. and yeay. another day of holiday spent happily.

byebye.

[further seems forever; the sound]

mcjh-twj

2005-08-09T11:46:00.000+08:00

believe it or not that was from a caption printed on one of my tote bags. this is what i dreaded the most. the prospect of kissing the four walls including the ceilings on a holidays doing nothing. how i darn wished that i've putted my schedule to work today. but thinking about it, i can just call hvcc and tell them i can work tonight and michael would have happily welcome me there. but heck no. i'm too lazy to work. i dunno why i am tho. is this what they call the severe acute pigginess syndrome? or SAPS? harharh.

off on 9th august 2004, we went to the fountain @ suntec. sad case; it won't happen this year. projects, school, don't want to waste time, tired, excuses and all sorta things.

still;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE

hehe. what hehe?

2005-08-08T22:29:00.000+08:00

my schedule for this week.

monday. 080805
home. (holiday)

tues. 090805 (happy birthday singapore)
home. (holiday)

wed. 100805
home. (holiday)

thurs. 110805
school. back home.

fri. 120805
school. work.

sat. 130805
out.

sunday. 140805 (happy birthday jean)
home.

fun???

shine on diamond eyes

2005-08-07T20:50:00.000+08:00

so here we are back to the start again trying hard to wait till morning

hey rise and shine and open up your eyes to give this world some color

shine on diamond eyes separate the space between love and lies

and as days go by, the memories remain

i'll wait for you

and as days go by, the memories remain

i won't let go

these days remain, the same pictures fade away

please don't ever change

please don't change your mind

no matter what they say i'll always wait

i hope you never fade as you drip through my veins

shine on, shine on, shine on diamond eyes

and as days go by, the memories remain

i'll wait for you

as days go by i swear i'll try (i'll wait for you)

until i die, anything for you (to fade)

hawthorne heights; the transition

had fun; lets go AGAIN.

2005-08-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

hermie. i. dzul. sufi. naziff.

total domination of the world for a period of say; 7 hours down on palawan beach. or isit panglima beach hermie? i took over the world. and a result; sore nose now. yes sore nose as in sore; on the surface and not the content beneath the skin. syet. and frisbee by the beach look oh-soo kewl with 5 bodily or punied phonies would i rather describe 'em as. aha. we feign to be a skimmer with all those board shop with those plump waistline or scrawny ones. but we had a great time though. don't we addict?

make it a habit next tym?

ermm. yes. i dun think buying a quiksilver apparels makes u one of them outside. i'm buying the brand and the apparel, none the sort of fashion do i wanna follow. ok; pardon me. just trying to pacify myself after buying a flippieflop fm yours truly. bt its nice. n dun compare me to them.

after a day on the beach looking at three quartered naked bodies there, then do i realise that actually i'm a born psychotic phaedophilic assjack with a thing for kids clad in small bikinis. "hey girl whats your name?" and "can i be your friend?" yes it does sounds corny and sick, and hermie you're good at it! but seriously, try it. lol.

speaking of lol, why do people laugh "LOL" online instead and "HAHA" when they're outside in reality. try vice-versa. u'd find it cool to do that. just for the sake of amusement; when ur bestfriend is trying to make the best lame and corny sucky joke that he/she can ever think of, and try LOL in fronta his/her face. tt'll kill off the conversation man. i bet it will. : try it.

digression; LOL is an acronym for "laugh out loud" for you clever people who are not aware of what it means.

and after which do i realise that the dreaded Reflection Journal had not been completed. and it's over. double shit now. and ugh! these crickets they're irritating my ears up to the max! can't stand it manz.

SHHHHUUUTTTUPPPPPPP!!!

till then again. i'm slugging my eyes out and letharging my body in. retreat to the bed now. march on! and again, flame on!

LOL (laugh out loud)

[armor for sleep; walking at night alone]

have fun; lets go.

2005-08-05T12:33:00.000+08:00

4 more weeks till sem 1 ends.
i need to seriously buck up to get my grades to at least a b for the rest of the sem.
hell no, i wanna repeat half a year of rp life.
and spend unnecessary money on studies.
hell no i won't.

shit u nurul, spot pe aku update?
hakz.

ok Operating System Mr Facilitator is a nice guy.
he is a nice guy.
please i say ur a nice guy, give me an A won't u idiot?

hakz.
i've got no plans after sch.
nurul got matair i cannot jio her out nemore.
i bored.
wanna go out? anyonez?

and yeay. sentosa-ing day out tomorrow!
wweee!! need to borrow a digicam later.

thinking abt ur post; i agree. taking over the world is much more fun-ner! yes it is yes it is. *hops around* fcuk it. c'mon pinky have fun; lets go.
[at the drive-in; patterns against user]

eight arms made this

2005-08-03T03:19:00.000+08:00

k read this.

quickie.

click on this link quick.

...

anything?

no?

doesnt matter.

thats the point of doing this.

done. bye.

tipe-x

2005-08-02T03:35:00.000+08:00

before i sleep.
tipe-x was on warna (sembilan empat perpuluhan dua FM) just now?
like, huh?

harharh.
k bye.

PERIOD

6ix mth

2005-08-02T03:32:00.000+08:00

happy 6ix mth anniversary zul.
figure it out.
ask me if u need clarification.
hee3.
ok ok. i shall log off now!

toodling off;
zulkarnaen bin zainol

my name is zu:L

2005-08-02T03:24:00.000+08:00

u'd believed it if i said fantastic four came to holland village coffeeclub
and saved it from a fiasco today?

no, u won't?
well its ur stupid loss.

four guys running a show with a full house on a monday night.
superb is the word here. -- well actually it'll suits fucking hell. but for viewer discretion.
one barista; a manager and two floor service staffs.
great ain't it?

well urs truly had his great share of everything.

and i'm actually supposed to be sleeping now considering the fact i've to
be at kay siang road at 0830hrs tomorrow morning.

a tribute to my blog addy; unplanned-fiasco.
today was it.

shit.

and flame on shall i go.

[everytime i dia; shallow water blackout]

spell fuck? FUCK??

2005-08-01T01:52:00.000+08:00

~~the date is [uno; augustos 2005]~~

~~happy august people.~~
bye.

[the early november; baby blue]

FART U LAH!

2005-07-31T13:50:00.000+08:00

yeay, its sunday and i'm working.
period.

ringz ringz.
*H V C C* flashes by on that mobile.

ugh.
feel... so.. lazy... to.. answer...
ugh.

a daily routine lah guys.
got used to it.
*LAUGH OUT LOUDS*
instead of the usual *LOLS*
sense it? the sarcasm i mean.

[awesome; vanity plates]

the broken heart of a traitor

2005-07-30T01:07:00.000+08:00

to build a bridge once burned, to fill what is hollow with the substance of virtue though the wings of a dove have wiped the tears from my eyes. this tongue has fanned the flames of unforgivenessbut love suffers long and rejoices in truth. and this imperfect creation is shortcoming but striving none the less for that which is eternal.

go toilet can?

2005-07-28T13:00:00.000+08:00

i've tons of shit.
i wanna go shit.
but i'm too lazy to.
waaa. but stomach pain.
how how?

PMS; pre-menstrual symptom
ugh. u got it.
and i'd suffer for it?
k great.

and u big guy.
mind ur language.
ok, yeah. u're the cool one.
aww you're-ohh-so-gelled-up
hair is so wonderfully cool.
u wanna be cool that fucking ur own problem
not at the expense of others ard u.
fuck off bug.
is it ur fucking problem that i can't do IT?
is it ur fucking problem that i'm not good as ur ass?
wipe it clean ayte?
or somebody gonna get a hurt real bad.

wipe that smirk off ur ch33bye-ish face before i haul this bottle there.
ugh.

hee3.
k tt was just an advertisement.
promoting hair gel.
caption shud go this way.

"FYUCK hair gel;

gels up ur hair like no others.

use it like this guy.

it works wonders.

and ur mouth turns bitchy.

get a big tin today!"

psst;

anyone who noes how to add a wishlist

can u find me in msn and tell me abt it?

[greeley estates; tear my world apart]

how many?

2005-07-27T16:44:00.000+08:00

ehhh?

i din noe how come i'm here.

i'm supposed to be clicking on the

milfhunter link in the address bar.

k since i'm here,
might as well i'll be updating.

i'm sleepy.
and i'm the same.
and u.
i dunno.

haha.

again.
i'm still sleepy lah.

k; so how many ants can fit ur whole shoes.

tt was the qn i asked myself
until my brain commited suicide.

rosemary;
heaven restore you in life. [interpol; evil]

frutips; the freshmaker. huh?

2005-07-25T14:24:00.000+08:00

[tsunami bomb; russian roulette]

i got my sony ericsson k700i.
cool-some.
byebye motorola e398.
sorry sub i overlooked about bringing the charger.
tehheee..
tomorrow okie?

sunday is spelt as; L-A-M-E

2005-07-24T12:12:00.000+08:00

day; sunday
date; july twenty fourth, two thousand five
time; twelve-twelve pm.
venue; yellow coloured bedspread across a single stupid creaking bed.
situation; raining.
colours; white, gray and pink.

argh. sunday morning again.
work; yet again.
rain again?

[mae; this time is the last time]

rainz.

2005-07-23T17:50:00.001+08:00

what's with all the transition! grraah!
i wanna go town later.
and its raining.
watever.
hee3. i'm not heart broken.
just brain broken in the rain.
kwangz.

psst. i'm in the library.

2005-07-22T12:08:00.000+08:00

i'm in the library with sub.
bitching abt each class and comparing both.
sub wanna exchange his sony ericsson k700i with my motorola e398.
seems like a good offer aye?
grabbit. i wannit. i wannit.
and we shall cloudwatch again tonyt.

[eisley; plenty of paper]

fake plastic trees

2005-07-22T01:42:00.000+08:00

yada yada. shit.
i'm just trying hard to sleep. but i cudn't.
oh shit module is tomorrow. (operating systems concepts)
must be early. it's a MUST.
understand anot babi?

i actually want these right now;
seafood marinara pomodoro,
slipper lobster linguini,
garlic prawn pasta,
baked spaghetti bolognese,
with a lil bit of fresh fruit chocolate fondue,
and muddy mud pie,
plus a pilsner worth of ice chocolate
and ice mocha vanilla
and ends off with scramble eggs.
wouldn't it be nice?

finish it and rubs my tummy.
fatass. u babi. hah.
dude; i do sound like a cheap bitch moaning about life in blogs.
pardon those harsh words.
its me when i cannot sleep.

agh. shut up bitch.

[everytime i die; prom song]

java... java... java... heck it!

2005-07-21T10:28:00.000+08:00

polymorphism?!
what in the greenish-blue-with-a-lil'-bit-of-yellow-hell is that?

take for example this;

// if we were to instruct three different people; a surgeon, a hair stylist, and an actor to "cut!", then;

a: the surgeon would begin to make an incision;

b: the hair stylist would begin to cut someone's hair; and

c: the actor would abruptly stop acting out the current scene, awaiting directorial guidance. //

haha.. that is polymorphism??? argh.
period.

k miss.
errmm..
can i ask u a question?

errmm..
promise not to get offended by this?
(serious tone here; trying hard not to laugh).

errrmmm..
err...
where's the orchard library?
*rolls on the floor*

had a hard tym finding it through taking the wrong ELEVATOR or u mean ESCALATOR miss?
hee3

<3

[alkaline trio; this could be love]

sorry.

2005-07-19T10:47:00.000+08:00

maybe i am imagining things.
yes maybe i am.

but u seem very different.
yes maybe you are.

if there's someone who i can't let out of my heart; its you.
yes maybe its you.

period

[juliana theory; august in bethany]

messages

2005-07-19T00:12:00.000+08:00

so, you won't reply my messages.
ok...
and ghandhi once said; rome wasnt built in a day.
hmmm. ok...
and confucious ask me to sleep now.
u go to jail bad boy

but i don't.

colourful structures

2005-07-18T11:53:00.000+08:00

whose picture is it that you keep on your wallet?
; my wallet is no where to be found

what time do you go to bed?
; everytime

what was the last thing you did before filling this survey?
; doing ADO application

who's the person you're gonna call if you need help?
; everyone. and i mean everyone

what's on your mind right now?
; sunny days, where have you gone.

with whom do you wanna be to have fun?
; lets go cloud watching. come!

what movie do u wanna watch now?
; fantastic four, corpes bride, willy wonka and the chocolate factory

when was the last time you went out?
; went out as in? i dun get u. sea-rye-ously.

what do you hate the most for now?
; getting stuck on database on monday.

when was the first time you slept alone?
; eversince my dad felt that its time for me to have a baby sis.

what do you do everyday besides eat and sleep?
; eat and sleep.

most fave thing in your room?
; my bed. period.

plan to buy something?
; harry potter novel

breakfast or dinner?
; supper

what do you usually eat for breakfast?
; eating ur thumb

did you eat breakfast today?
; trust me. i won't

do you recycle?
; if the mood is right i would

do you have a laptop?
; they called it acer TravelMate 290

32. cats or dogs?
; your mom's cooking.

salty or sweet?
; shit

city or country?
; toilet

what's your favorite kind of jeans?
; those which i dun afford

is kissing normal for your age?
; not. a taboo

do you swear?
+ i swear that i dun swear! fuck!

do you have your own cell phone?
; ermm. yerp i do. a black mobile.

what do you wear to bed?
; boxer shorts.

ever had a crush on a teacher?
; i think... got arh.

coke or pepsi?
; green tea

sugar or spice?
; and everything nice

do you care about getting good grades?
; used to. not. now. yes.

have you ever fallen asleep in class?
; considering those c's and d's what do you think i'd be doing in class? notes?

get a job or ask your parents for money?
; gerrit fm urs.

is your dad strict?
; grr.

do your parents give you enough privacy?
; yearp. nice tho.

do your parents trust you?
; no. a big fat capital lettered no.

does your best friend get on your nerves?
; note it plural. best friendS! and yah they are a bunch of monkeyz.

do you make friends quickly?
; i'd hope so.

do you tell your mom everything?
; most of it.

what do you and your parents fight about the most?
; room. toilet. food. tv. slackism. and much more

windmill for the land

2005-07-18T10:22:00.000+08:00

because u are eighteen.

i need to tell the world abt it.
happy birthday nurul!

c",)
babi!

amacam gambar kau lawa???

muahahahahahah.

poof. and off to neverland.

2005-07-18T00:28:00.000+08:00

do not disturb.
i'm making out.
and having pms at the same time.
i'll turn green. i will.
i promise.

k kewl.
armpits up if u noe the answer to my qn here.
does the moon spins around Earth?
period.

star dazing, moon watching, sky shifting,
coconut comparing, stars or
glowing-aircraft-in-the-sky squabbling;
c'mon lets do it again...

crash

2005-07-17T01:58:00.000+08:00

*crash*
i knocked into a mug and it broke into two, three or perhaps 5 pieces?
cleared it all up. to the kitchen i went. and dispose of the evidence of a major massacre at home.

went esplanade.
i was too lethargic of all the sleeping i've done today.
and i almost din want to go out.
was a rusted star when i reached there. alotta peeps at the table in makansutra.
and yeah met alotta other people too.

people;
nurul, zyana. shikin and gang. farhan, ida. cousin and cousin fiance. younger cousin and friend. tt guy from ite dover. faiz from airport. tt guy from rp. and hippo and mei-i. tahaha. forget the last one.

stayed baybeats for a single hour before taking a trip back to town. din noe that clouds watching at night was interesting. and night-air sniffing was a kewl thingy too. k kewl.
and friggin roaches were swarming at every sight of us. shit you roach. shuff all of ya generation down the friggin shit hole.

lesson learnt for the day;
when the light is red, please cross the traffic without looking left and right.
you'll be safe tt way.
=D

period.

os is oh shit.

2005-07-15T14:26:00.000+08:00

operating systems.
what the freegin hell is best fit, first fit, second fit and worst fit? grr.
i lost mua wallet todae. mr. security found it.
and the lesson is going on right now.
and i'm too distracted to continue my eyes fixed on the presentation screen.

"Is that next fit" caught my attention and all the dreaming suddenly stops and i dropped dead on reality for a second.

i was late for school. woke up at 8. your message woke me up!
harharh. had mushroom chix noodle at puncak just now.
went jackassin at town with alfi and azhar.

farah was at fareast. she recognised you zu:L!
ain't it? not?

psst..

2005-07-15T01:18:00.000+08:00

you humour me today; calling me out to play.

growls. says tummy.

2005-07-14T11:58:00.000+08:00

could you let me go?

i didn't think so

and you don't wanna be here in the future

so you say the present's just a pleasant interruption to the past

and you don't wanna look much closer

cuz your afraid to find out all this hope you'd sent into the sky

by now had crashed and it did because of me
and if i hurt you then i'm sorry

please don't think that this was easy

this is to a girl who got into my head with all the pretty things she did

hey you know you keep me up in bed

this is to a girl who got into my head

spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen.

and i said did you know i missed you?

oh god i miss you.

[konstantine - something corporate]

angels with even filthier souls

2005-07-13T16:43:00.000+08:00

shit happens.
can't escape it tho.
until u hit your head on the wall,
u won't gauge ur fall.

and just hope miracles happen.

p.s. stop asking am i ok after reading this. i am.

[he is legend; dinner with a gypsy]

this place is a prison; postal service

2005-07-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

naive, blunt and selenge.
NURUL.
hehehe...
got bedek-ed by me time and again hah nurul?
hah!

went to the esplanade with her aft school.
walked through citylink mall and took a train hme.
because? class ends super early. 1445 tt is.

train was an hours journey.
reach hm and snooze it.

bold lettered words

2005-07-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

the moon hangs like the blade of an axe tonight,
and it's poised to drop sometime soon enough on this dump truck where I lie
mixed up with the morning's trash.
there's a piece of glass sticking in my back
and tar covering my mouth.

but it's okay cause i'm still breathing and my hands are free of the heap.

and i think that i see that big blade falling.
and i think that i see that big blade coming.

and the pressure is getting to me
and the waste in which i sit is just lurking beside me.
and I can't tell if it's me
or the meat that's rotting.
i'm gonna have to give up sometime soon.

you can watch me disappear.
you can watch me.
all I'm losing is me.

and i think that i see that big blade coming
to slice open a great canyon through the earth
so you can watch me disappear.

fate; expose thyself

2005-07-12T01:04:00.000+08:00

je t'aime;
serieusement, je vous aime

default port: 7777

2005-07-10T18:49:00.000+08:00

this is meant for an expression of feelings.
if we can get sued, sacked or scorned at for writing
our own expressions why does blogging do even
exists?

shit ain't it.
well this is a story.
hope it doesn't bother or take time of you too much.
well actually the story starts off back to the 1980's.
well i cut short the 18 years and 7 mths and
just jump to this day of this guy life.

well he's pathetic. cos he's tired.

get tt. tt is his story. interesting? yeah
of course it is. its me who wrote it. i dun
care who u are to read this, just pretend you
like the story and smile and tell you grandchildren's
abt it.

ayte?

toodles.

[silverstein - smashed to pieces]

fewesjemce.

2005-07-08T22:50:00.000+08:00

i'm actually supposed to do my rj but instead caught here again. can't stop the itch on my fingers. k k. alrightey. i'm doing it. bye.

kill me; squirrel

2005-07-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

we had one thing in similar. i like watching and you like hearing. well its kind of a passive action one might say, considering the fact what i learnt in OS that, that stupid "listening machine" is actually passive instead of active. k don't mind this. i'm just talking to my knees. it won't make sense. green air just came out of my mouth whenever i try to say some wise words out.

it seems, i'll never get wise. the most i'll be clever; which may takes 10 billion light years to achieve it. flopping grades and stupid tests. seems i'm never wise enough to put first in first out on priorities. trying my best to be active (note active; not passive) in class participitation. at least if i can get a straight B's and scores C's for tests, it may be sufficient to see me through 2nd year 1st sem.

schools been dropping from bad to worse this semester. been slacking lesser. apart from spending quality times on the couch with hakim closing eyes and get irritated by girls laughing and kids running in the library. READ THIS. LIBRARY; HUSH HUSH. YOU! KEEP QUIET. get that? stuff it in your brain. why do they call it tertiary education when people at their third stage of educations can't even sort out what they have to do and not to do.

my niece in kindergarten would noe the sign LIBRARY and straight would be quiet. grr. i'm pissed off. cos, i din get to sleep just now. so pardon me on bitching about it.

and canteen food. SUCKS to the power of four thousand eight hundred and twenty seven and a half. in numerical terms sucks^4527 1/2. get tt. calculate it. u guys who read this are smarter creatures than me in mathematical terms. explains why i could get a freegin F9 and D7 for both time in O levels respectively. i'm such a no numbers person. WHAT IF, i got a 6 for maths. things would go way different here.

maybe i may be in SP or NP doing some design or engineering course, or what abt NYP? i can get into there. instead RP HERE I COME says zuL. ugh. its true what they say when we're three months in confinement in mom's womb, everything is predestined. maybe this is the way i've to live my life. god has everything in store for me.

future is too exciting to ponder abt. *rubs hands and grins* just couldn't expect what may happen next. what may happen tomorrow? maybe on the way to work i may stumble across a thousand dollar bill on my doorstep. wow. or even get a call from bill gates to manage his microsoft firm. weee. surprising.

it ain't wrong to be dreaming. dreams keeps people awake. dreams makes people aware they're still alive. dreams is which makes them going.

so to ends things off, i'd like to end with a thought here.
as clever as the squirrel may jump; it falls go back to the earth oso.
sorry for the stupid translation. u guys should get what it means.
this is for the convenience of those non-malay readers.

period.

ooss.stuuuped.

2005-07-08T13:33:00.000+08:00

i am...

feeling sleepy.
tahaha. k done.

my number is...

2005-07-07T23:04:00.000+08:00

it seems that the bon jovi song is everywhere.
eversince watching that a lot like love, turning everywhere,
hearing people tuning on to it. nick, personal msges, friendster profiles,
blog song hosting, laptop. its everywhere. well its nice anyway.
so no complains.

adding to my list of fav pastimes and all time hobbies.
1) coming late to sch.
2) skipping understanding tests.
3) sleeping in class.
4) nose digging
and
5) scratching ass.

i'll be there for you. these five words i swear to you.

when you breathe i wanna be the air for you.

bleargh. woohoo. check this song out.

2005-07-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

something's growing under that wing
i think a face is dawning
oh no the books are growing faces
and you're lost quite classically
with your nose in a book
and it seems so fitting

and perhaps this is the end we've sought after for so long
and perhaps now it's done

i cut the moon in half and stuck a piece to my hair;
it made the back of my head glow golden yellow

and then i took ten stars on sticks

and placed them in my small metal pocket

and i gave the other half of the moon to you
ooh, so you wouldn't forget me while i'm gone

and oh my love
we can live on the sun
and wouldn't we be attractive riding in our shiny motor cars
with eyeglasses full of stars and plenty of paper for scenery paintings

cause we found all entire dreams of men and machines

and turned them all around to enjoy them

and benefit ourselves
our paperback books, our charming looks
our identical hands composing our commands

eisley; plenty of paper

aww. darnz.

2005-07-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

dammit shit and fyuck.
3 exclamations to describe school.
skipping classes; missing ut's;
and a fyuckin warning
letter got me into hot soup todae.

good tt dad din' noe abt it.
i'll get a naggin for sure.
and mom, thx for tt earful
u gave me strght
after a hot day at sch today.
=)

here how it goes;

30 June 2005

ZULKARNAEN BIN ZAINOL

address here

Student ID: 41547

Dear ZULKARNAEN BIN ZAINOL,

LEAVE OF ABSENCE WITHOUT APPROVAL

1 We note from our records that you have been absent from class for the following lessons to date without official approval:

Module Code & Title
C119 Web Multimedia

No. of lessons missed
3

2 We would like to remind you that students who continue to miss lessons without official approval will eventually be awarded a "nil" grade and be required to retake module(s) in a subsequent semester. You can refer to the relevant announcement on MyRP for details.

Office of the Registrar

This letter is computer generated and does not require a signature.

get that. haiz. shitty.
done.

kwangz.

2005-07-03T12:31:00.000+08:00

eisley; telescope eyes

my throat's laughing with catarrh. phlegm filling the chest. i'm sick.

k just woke up

2005-07-02T14:14:00.000+08:00

+ how are you feeling at the moment?
- lethargic

+ the last movie you watched?
- mr & mrs smith

+ the last song you heard?
- the silence - gone until december

+ the last time you spent on smth?
- last night

+ the last place you went?
- kay siang road

+ the last thing you heard from your parents?
- "ajul, macam mana nak tgk orang miss call nie?"

+ the last thing you said to your parents?
- "g call register. lepas tu kat situ eh nampak."

+ the last thing you said to one of your friends?
- "hahaha... wowowowowo"

+ the last person you called?
- nags.

+ the last person who called you?
- you.

+ the last person who said you're pretty/ handsome?
- wahahha. SRI!!

+ the last person who messaged you in MSN?
- naf.

+ the last person/s you're with?
- errr. i dun quite noe who was the last i'm with. been meeting alotta people lately.

+ the last person you think of before going to sleep?
- you.

+ the last thing you're going to do before going to sleep?
dig my nose, wipe it on the bedsheet and snore. yes.

+ What song r u listening now?
greeley estates - until tomorrow

+ handphone brand?
- motorola. hello moto. hakz.

+ where do u live?
- jurong east. trust me, its humid down here.

+ Who are you thinking of right at this moment?
- melanie wills

+ what would best describe you?
- a handsome boy.

+ few words before we call it a day?
- i heart you melanie wills. and i still like you, miss eisley.

one true thing

2005-07-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

the pic is damn kewl of the stars i might consider making it my layout.

teheheee.

ok.
a new band added on my list of killer female vocals.
letme tell ya guys; one true thing is DA band.
check em out!
melanie wills's her name. catch tt.
mellow voice reminds of cranberries.
indie beat reminds of eisley.
and those religiously tune to FATA, autumns monologue and short stories has her voice.
catch tt again.
dun say i din tell u guys abt this.
tahahah.
k done.

emily

2005-07-01T17:42:00.000+08:00

smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that i've been waiting for a time
regardless of our distance and our hope... cause we're
swept by pretty eyes and letters for all time
...the only thing that i've been waiting for.

i hope it's something worth the waiting
cause its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like Emily

she's simple yet confusing
her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words, they tremble
days seem like years in this month of December
the winter coldens me for I have yet to sleep
and never will I give up trying because you're everything to me

smelly feet and tedious chores.

2005-07-01T04:02:00.000+08:00

reached home.
inventory check.
yes!
finished digging my nose.
biting toe nails has always been a fabulous experience.
popping my knuckles.
stretching my neck.
time for goodnight.
sweet dreams.
and maybe, perhaps maybe to RP shall thy go tomorrow.
830 for operating systems.
wohooo.
done.
goodnyt.

drowning to; silverstein - smash to pieces

stars and stripes

2005-06-29T22:43:00.000+08:00

school. 111. penin. rooftop.

jackass. ciggarette loss. mrt.

cc. purple. umbrella. chicken pie.

fries. aneh. you're adorable. wooden table.

benches. white. 1800. 7.

99. scv. maxonline. wireless.

broadband. silverstein. saosin. from autumn to ashes.

get up kids. rain. vans slip ons. chilly wheather.

dead hp. web multimedia UT2.

web multimedia 6th p.

kuch kuch hota hai. 10 a side soccer.

undownloadable songs.

words, colours and numbers that brighten up my day.

edit html

2005-06-28T20:44:00.000+08:00

three simple words
finch

open up my eyes, flooded with daylight
another slpless night turns color black n white
with all d things i've said
there is jus regret, repeatin in my head

hands into a fist, static in my head
now i'm sittin face to face with loneliness
wat did i expect, did i see forever in u?

i never want it to hurt more than it shud
i hope ur satisfied, i nvr cud
tym to close my eyes, forget about this mess
n try to fix this tragic loss of innocence
bt how can i forget, the things i have inside
wen everything is dead?

can't u see, u left me here on my own
gif me 1 gd reason y i shud let go now...

with my hands around your neck
who will stop me now?

ok.

2005-06-28T14:56:00.000+08:00

i'm like..
and she's like...
and he's like..
and we're like..
and they're like..
simply watevahh.

as what wina msn nicks says;
it's true love when goodbye doesn't separate two hearts.

the freshmaker?

2005-06-27T11:57:00.000+08:00

minus the berms and slipons.
ur not.
lol.

no more morning cartoons.
no more late night comedies.

just class, class and class for now.

alotta been happening during hols.
laptop down. for a fact!
everything down. harharh.

hmm. so new term start.
start afresh please mr z:uL.!

mentos the freshmaker.

awaken. brazen. hurt.

2005-06-14T12:23:00.000+08:00

ok so yesterday.
had to work till 1630.
and herms starting at 1800.
so when i ended werk, nags came and we slacked at cc till
herms started werk. and again we slacked there cos we had no plan to do aft
that.
i had this feelin tt i'm gonna be damn bored at
home so when roger asked me to work
till 2300 i was "k roger. anytime"
it was kinda a full shift yesterday apart for a 3 1/2 hrs break. fm 1630 to 2000 hrs.
lucky nags was there to keep me company.
altogether i had 29 hrs of werk.
gimme more. so i can werk the full week.
and sm:LE)

ok tts it, i'm away fm home for almost 24 hrs.
left hm at 10. yeap was late for werk yest.
and haven't been home except for changing of clothes for 5 mins last nite.
spent the nite at herms crib.
tt makes me feel better.
i'll bet i'll be in agony spending the nite on tt empty room where
all the ... argh whatever shit here.

so stay healthy. have fun. take care. and all the best.
and SM:LE)

prfft.

2005-06-12T03:29:00.000+08:00

kau lah kawan aku dunia akhirat.
cumer, bini aku taknak kipas lipas.
dier nak kipas kebas.

the 104th time i watched do re mi.
never seems to be bored with
the only same old lame sarcastic dialogues.

i'll fall asleep tonite,
cause that brings me closer to you.
thx yet again;
matchbook romance.

the umpteenth time i listen to it.
ok. bye.

and again.
i still like you,
i still like you,
and again, i still like you.
done and over with.
<3

phew.

2005-06-10T02:45:00.000+08:00

have u ever appologized to inanimate objects after bumping into them?
- hmm. yeap. after they deliberately position themself in a position where it is unavoidable to be avoided. and black and blues come. after those ouches and ooohs.

have u ever thought u heard someone call ur name n dey didn't?
- hey. who dat! betul2 ah.

wat is cooler; squishy or shiny things?
- squishy, provided they're black and have stripes all over.

wat is the oddest thing tat distracts u?
- squishy things which stripes all over those black paints..

wat is the most completely random thing you've ever done or said?
- talking to my imaginary friend. ask him how is he. what he's doing and stuff. yeah. i noe. i'm scary. but u with no imagination is scarier. scary kids scaring kids. u lah. who else.

do u often hear voices in ur head?
- if it's requires hearing, doesn't it needs ear? so if my head were to sound, i dun think... yeah u noe what i mean.

have u ever found yourself lost in a store when the door was right there?
- ok if the door was right there, i'll just pretend it wasn't there. then i can have a fun time finding the door whilst pretending it wasn't there. ouh, how fuunn.. then while i'm pretending the door wasn't there, i'll just sit on a corner of the store and imagine the store as a playgrd where i can play the swing with u. again. how fuunn..

have u ever randomly done something for no reason at all?
- trust me. i'll sleep at random hours. if thats what u mean.

have u ever glued change (pennies and dimes etc.) to mall floors?
- ermm.. knock knock. we dun use pennies and dimes in singapore. and even tho i pretend i live in london, i dun think i'll glue those on mall floors. glueing notes are much kewl-er.

have u ever jumped off of a roof into a pool?
- dear dad. build me a pool on the open yard below.

how many random things have you said in this past week?
- hey! whats with all the RANDOM. get a life larh!

wat was the longest time you've ever spent doing nothing & just thinking?
- hmmm.. i've always caught doing something. wait, if sleeping counts as doing something tt is.

have u ever been addicted to something random that's not obvoiusly harmful?
- i'm just addicted to u. i hope it won't be harmful.

if so what?
- HAH! its been sometime since i said this. if so what? so-tong. yes! yes! at last i let it all go.

what do u think of this quiz (besides it being insane or stupid)?
- randomly. its randomly kewl. cos its 3 in the morn now and its keepin me awake. randomly kewlness.

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2005-06-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

up, up, up and away!!

got a free motherboard or mainboard as what they call it.

changed the hdd the 1st tym ard.

and the mainboard now.

just hope nth would be wrng again the next tym ard.

and no more songs in the lappie.

watch me gravitate

2005-06-06T12:36:00.000+08:00

the 2 shows i watched recently.

wes craven cursed.

and j-fo and j-lo monster in law.

cursed was abit too dramatic.

gory substance turn lousy.

graphic animation which makes

nyp and tp students feel proud of their work.

monster-in-law was hilarious.

crazy.

put both jane fonda and jennifer lopez in a set.

the outcome.

a pretty old lady with a cute young latin.

hmmm.

swinging sensationez

2005-06-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

i wanna play swing.
period.

keep me from breathing

2005-06-04T02:44:00.000+08:00

pada suatu hari, aku sedang pulang ke rumah dari sekolah. Aku terjumpa seekor anak kucing di tepi jalan meng-iaow sekuat hati. aku tidak sampai hati, tapi sampai jantung lalu aku pun menjongkok dan membelai kucing itu. kucing itu mengunakan badannya untuk menyondol kakiku. aku pun turut kegelian. terus aku tarik ekor dier.

kucing itu menjerit lalu dia kejar aku. aku lari balik rumah. aku lari laju. kucing itu tidak dapat kejar aku kerana aku lari laju. lagi laju dari atuk dia lari. aku mengeluarkan anak kunci, bukan bapak kunci, dari kocek aku lalu membuka pintu. aku menuju ke dapur untuk melihat apakah emak aku telah masak. tapi emak aku tidak masak apa-apa. aku pun darah menyirap ah. aku bingit.

aku duduk dalam bilik. bukak kipas. hilangkan peluh. aku bukak radio kuat kuat kasi satu blok aku tau yang aku frust tidak dapat makan apabila aku kelaparan. selepas itu aku dengar adik aku melalak. aku keluar bilik. aku tanya dia, "eh dah kenapa nie? buang tebiat ke?" dier kata dia menangis kerana dia lapar. lalu, aku pun keluar pergi ke kedai kopi kira untuk beli makan lah.

tetapi kedai makcik tu dah tutup. aku menjadi lebih bingit lah. kire lagi bingit dari tadi. kalau matrip berbual, dier mcm kata "darah gua up jer". tapi aku bukan matrip jadi aku tk kata gitu. aku cuma ckp tk daaapat ah. lepas tu, aku lari lari anak gi macdonald ah. sekali macdonald pulak tutup arh. aku dah tkleh tahan ah. aku pun marah manager dia. aku marah dia ckp bapak tiri laki mak dia lah. terus dia senyum. aku ingat dia gila. sekali, sekali je, bukan dua kali, aku tak zip seluar aku ah beb. tadi gi toilet aku lupa nak zip balek.

nasib baik tupai jantan aku tak lari. terus aku frust aku balik kebuluran ah. aku balik adik aku pun dah berenti melalak. aku sampai ruma terus aku tedur. sekali, aku terjatuh katil.

rupa-rupanya aku bermimpi.

how's my composition? nice?

cereka ini adalah rekaan semata mata (bukan hidung atau bontot) dah tiada kaitan dengan orang yg hidup atau telah meninggal jamban.

feel good; shake it.

2005-06-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

its supposed to make u feel good.
the songs i mean.
feel good inc.
hmph.
u ****
S-H-I-T

saw the parit sonto gang.
haha.
ya u buggers.
its tagged on ur faces.
usop and ajes!
stupid mats.

this is life

2005-06-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

lolz.
let see.
met naziff after sch.
went mc D aft sch.
ronald mcD.
ring a bell?
hee3.
naziff used my lappie.
i slept at mcD.
nvr had i slept in a fast food restaurant before.
woke up to see elaine and bf lookin at me.
paiseh.

the day was fun at sch.
came-d early.
was on time for all meeting.
answered all qn posed.

faci: ok zul, why is there a need to use case "3", "4" & "5"? instead of 1,2 or 3?
zul: errrmm. ok. because 1,2 & 3 not lucky enuff. if use 3,4 & 5, they're lucky numbers, so the codes will work.
*group became hysterical.

faci: ok, look at the codes again. why is there a "break" in between the case.
zul: oh i noe. tt wan because, the case last time gf-bf. then dey not happy. they break orh.
*faci shakes head. group was laughing.

in actual fact, i dunno what is the answer is.
but at least i do answer some questions.
hee3.

i din sleep thru 3rd meeting.
was actively "participating" in class.
borrowed nurul creative.
listen to songs.
nice.
hee3.
shan't go deeper into what songs.

ok lets go BACKPACKING!
who's on.
armpits up!

drownin to; gorillaz - feel good inc

emo boy; kepe?

2005-06-02T10:33:00.000+08:00

saw tt shithole in fronta ya?
well jump over it sissy.
and dun get urself dirty.

u shit.

F U C K I T ! ! ! !

2005-06-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

but i'm not sleeping.
you're not here.
the thought stops my heart.

ugh.

FUCK IT.

when morning comes; i'll be ok.

2005-06-01T03:22:00.000+08:00

had supper.
the whole lot of us.
mr manager was kind.
thanks you very nice.

Blythe says:
..STOP IT LAH!
Blythe says:
PRIORITIZE UR STUFFS PROPERLY CAN!?
Blythe says:
STUDIES FIRST. WORK LATER.
Blythe says:
>: (

thx for making me waking up my fugging idea.
i'll prioritise my stuffs from now.

banana. bee a yana yana.

2005-05-31T00:20:00.000+08:00

u see one million words can't describe how it feels to noe ur love
i'm closer than u think when we're apart

nth tat i've tried is as simple as this time
without u my life is incomplete, my days are absolutely gray

so i'll try to let ur heart know for sure tat i've so much more to tell u every single day
i swear i'm giving up my inside to the one tat i adore

i noe tis world is big enough for u and i
but i'll give u more

i'm comin hme todae to wipe the tear drops from ur eyes
i'm totally enamored by your life

nth tat i've done has ever been for one
my life is incomplete, my rights are absolutely wrong

so wake me up before you leave today
smth i need to say cause there'll be nothing when you're gone

international euu day

2 hour express service

2005-05-30T21:33:00.000+08:00

ok.
lesson learnt.
#1. dun play a fool on the circuit.
#2. dun overtake cars and other slow moving vehicles.
#3. dun smile at the instructor.
#4. dun jam break 3 times.
#5. dun pretend u're some max biaggi or valentino rossi.
#6. dun race with fellow student.
#7. enuff said. do what you're supposed to do.

BECAUSE.
u'll fail.
ugh.